The chasm

Becoming a mom has opened up a whole new world of sadness and fear and worry. I am always one step away from totally losing my shit if anything should happen to my baby. One step. How do people lead normal lives when they are so vulnerable? I guess trying not to think about it most of the time is the first way to keep going. I mean, you go to Target, and complain about work, and plan summer vacations, and do your laundry, and make an amazon wish list, but as soon as your baby has the stomach flu, all levels go to zero and nothing is good until he feels better, or at least stops vomiting.